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Family Force 5 and Me

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Monday, October 03, 2005

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 20:09:45 GMT

Okay ment to do this awhile ago NEW SITE! oh yeah. y'all who didnt know are probably like OMG she hasnt typed anything lately its a mirical. Wrong. www.xanga.com/engravingembrace laterz

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 20:56:46 GMT

Today was... Fun. Suprising that I said that eh... Oh well. I found out that anytime I get ready for school standing out for the bus I wanna puke or anytime I think about school I wanna. But yeah I only got an hour of sleep, and anytime I do that I get really hyper, some people think Im high. Wonder why... But on the bus, being happy! I was happy... Weird... Then on the bleachers more happiness.... scary... Grr my CD hates me but anyways. Math... Now that Im thinking of math I forgot to finish my project. Grr Oh well. Im gonna try to find out a way where I can do it now. Math happiness with homework. Then english Id idnt do my homework but I claimed I misplaced it. So I got to redo it. haha. I gave my life away!!!! lalala Yeah but back to the story. After english was Lunch w00t. Some one decided to throw a penny. I wnet chasing after it. I never found it. Lets see Oh when I was walking to lunch Sellers stops me saying In Study Hall You Need To Finish Your Test... I never started it I never studied it. And wow I just relized that I like did that up there but anyways..... Im all like I have to finish my homework in english. And shes all like well whats more important your homework or your quiz... I should have said My Grade haha. Yeah... but thats how my lunch was. Then to study hall. I was forced to goto van tines room where I said hi to letter haha. And I finished my homework... Then I went to Sellers class to do the quiz. Then I was all like Grr and shes all like Amanda, Chill everything is gonna be okay. I should have said Nothings going to be okay NOTHING AT ALL! And then like I should have broke out crying. That would have been fun. Yeah but I didnt.... I probly failed that fucking test. Then I umm was tottally outta it. lit is just a huge blank in my mind right now. Spanish was fucking awesome. I swear its my favorite class. I learn nothing and fucking piss people off. Not many people just Krista I think thats how her name is spelt if not then oh well. Hailey was being fucking stupid. She was trying to get a detention, she really pissed off teacher person. But failed at getting the detention. She is so dumb. And yet Im the one who gives her the ideas..... but yeah... I took kristas note book again and where she had the picture of peirre I fucking drew all over it gave him a mustach and some dots. Hailey added some piercings. I gave him some new hair. And then finally krista notices and Im like oh shit and she takes my binderie thingie. she reads my peoms and then gives my thing back. What the hell lol. Then the bus was weird. Thats how my day has been, I hope nothing else gets me down. Cause being happy is way better then being depressed and shit. But Im sure Im not gonna be happy all day. But whatever Laterz.

Monday, September 26, 2005

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 01:15:21 GMT

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

All American Rejects "Move Along"

Love that song. It's kick ass. Well laterz.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 20:50:16 GMT

I had the most awesomest dream ever last night... More like this mourning. It was about My Chemical Romance. *drools* They were like preforming somewhere and then somehow they started preforming in my room. *drool* and then like bob mikey and ray all disappeared.... No! Oh well. Gerard kept singing and Frankie kept playing. And he was all like I wanna hear you scream and put your hands in the air. And then he touched my face and Im like OMG He just so touched my face, I will never wash it again. lol. And then he like hugged me and so did frankie. And Im all like drool!!! Then I woke and and found out it was a dream.... I was so sad then lol.

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE "Honey This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Two Of Us"

The amount of pills I'm taking counteracts the booze I'm drinking
and this vanity I'm breaking, lets me live my life like this
and well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
Well I'll choose the life I've taken, never mind the friends I'm making
and the beauty that I'm faking lets me live my life like this
And well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
And you can cry all you want to, I don't care how much

You'll invest yourself in me, we're not working out
And you can't touch my brother and you can't keep my friends
and we're not working out, we're not working out
This time I mean it, never mind the times I've seen it

Well I hope I'm not mistaken by the news I heard from waking
and it's hard to say I'm shaken, by the choices that I make
and well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
Well I'll choose this life I've taken, never mind the friends I'm making
And I get a little shaken, because I live my life like this
And well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say
Oh baby let me in
And you can cry all you want to, I don't care how much

You'll invest yourself in me, we're not working out
And you can't keep my brother, and you won't fuck my friends
and we're not working out, we're not working out
This time I mean it, never mind the times I've seen it

Never again, never again
Oh baby let me in, I'm knocking let me in

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE "Vampires Will Never Hurt You"

And if they get me and the sun goes down into the ground
And if they get me take this spike to my heart and
And if they get me and the sun goes down
And if they get me take this spike and
You put the spike in my heart

And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones
And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there
Someone get me the doctor, someone get me to a church
Where they can pump this venom gaping hole
And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat
And if they come and get me
You put the spike in my heart

And if they get me and the sun goes down
And if they get me take this spike and
-Chorus-
Can you take this spike?
Will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless
Night time sky
Can you take this spike?
Will it wash away this jet black feeling?

And now the nightclub set the stage for this they come in pairs she said
We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey they're always there
Someone get me to the doctor, and someone call the nurse
And someone buy me roses, and someone burned the church
We're hanging out with corpses, we're driving in this hearse
Someone save my soul tonight, please save my soul
-Chorus-

And as these days watch over time, and as these days watch over time
And as these days watch over us tonight
I'll never let them, I'll never let them
I'll never let them hurt you now tonight
I'll never let them, I can't forget them
I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Struck down, before our prime
Before, you got off the floor
Can you stake my heart? Can you stake my heart?
Can you stake me before the sun goes down?

I swear Gerard looks like Robert Smith (Lead Singer of The Cure) in that video. But maybe thats just me. Oh well, MCR will always look sexy no matter what. Lol. Laterz.

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 00:13:40 GMT

This is decated to you, Letter. Have fun.

Blur "Song 2"

Wha Whoo
Wha Whoo
Wha Whoo
Wha Whoo

I got my head checked
By a jumbo jet
It wasn't easy
But nothing is, no

When I feel heavy metal Wha Whoo
And I'm pins and I'm needles Wha Whoo
Well I lie and I'm easy Wha Whoo
All of the time but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

I got my head done
When I was young
It's not my problem
It's not my problem

When I feel heavy metal Wha Whoo
And I'm pins and I'm needles Wha Whoo
Well I lie and I'm easy Wha Whoo
All of the time but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Oh, yeah

well good bye.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 21:30:19 GMT

I finished reading that book. Locked In Time, kind of sad the ending is anyways. If you think about it.... You might not have to think about it though. I dont know..... but yeah....

From First To Last "Note To Self"

Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

I wanted to be that breath of fresh air, When everything smelled so insincere.
But this taste still lingers in my mouth, Deceit has ways of sticking around.
And I'm ready to disappear, Vacation seems far... Far From here.

Note to self: I miss you terribly.
This is what...they call a tragedy.
Come back to me, back to me, To me.
(repeat)

I can feel my mind, wandering again.
Into where I dont know, and will I ever get home?
Time starts moving, faster than I can.
And I'm sick of this scene, I need a break from the routine.
(repeat)

Two roads...Split off from here, and my life goes running in opposite directions.
Exaggerating the barrier between who I am, and who I want to be.

Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so far.
Which part of me is lost? I feel so close, and yet I am so...Far!

You know you like them..... You know it. heh... Laterz.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 01:49:43 GMT

*sigh* I thought my hairbands where doing the trick... Well, they failed me... I started cutting again.. I havent cut since 6th grade. Heh...Im not proud of myself... But ya gotta do what ya gotta do I guess.... I feel like shit. Depressed. And none of my CDs are helping. I hate myself so much. I created this damn dark hole that I have seemed to fall into. And I cant seem to climb out of it either. i try to be happy... I try, but I fail at it. There is nothing I can do, or anyone can do. I did this to myself, and I gotta get myself outta it, its my problem. Dont blame yourself. I dont want to see any of my friends blaming themselves, its my fault. Everything is, well not everything. But pretty close to everything. But whatever... Bye bye.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 23:42:52 GMT

i put the knife to my writs and arm
i watch the blood drip to the ground
i watch the all my sorrow slip away
today was not a very good day
i put on my armwarmers
so no one can see
the scars from where my pain sleeps from me
it doesn't make it better
it doesn't make it right
but know one would care if i died tonight
nobody knows the pain i feel
they think they can see through me...i say "get real!"
they have no idea they have no clue
on what somedays i can't help but do
i cut myself
then it's alright
i cover the wounds
and think it's alright

A friend will help you talk about stuff....

A really good friend will help you bury the body of the basterd that made you sad...
just let me know when you need me to bring a shovel

^^ I love that message kind of...

if you saw me crying, would you whipe my tears? if you saw my sittin byself, would you sit down beside me. IF you saw that sad, would you come over and consoul in me? if you saw that i needed a man in my life, would you be the one?

small, simple, safe price rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets. this is not a small cut that scabs and dries and flakes and heals. and i am not afraid to die. im not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight. i want the pain of payment. whats left but a section of pigme size cuts, much like a slue of a thousand unwanted fucks. would you be my little cut? would you be my thousand fucks? and make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid. to fill and spill over and under my thoughts. my sad, sorry selfish cry out to the cutter, im cutting trying to picture your black broken heart. love is not like anything, especially a fucking knife!
I love the used!

I'm dying inside, but nobody knows it but me!!! You'll never be able to see the pain i hold within...I refuse to show you, that's why it is best if u not ask. Don;t bother askin why I'm like this either, everything that you wanna know is kept inside a dark black corner of my mind. You are making a mistake for getting involved with me, but I would like to be your favorite M.I.S.T.A.K.E.! I'll be the mystery girl who no one can figure out!!!

If you bleed, Lean on me, If you cry, I?ll make you care free, If life means no worth, I?ll make you see. I?ll share your problems, Come rain or shine, I?ll be your rock, Because your mine, So don?t worry, Don?t cry, Don?t be sad, I?ll be there, Through the good times and the bad.

Sometimes when I'm alone
I cry because I'm on my own
All the tears I cry are bitter and warm
They flow with life, and take no form
Ah the world moves fast
and it would rather pass you on by
than to stop and see what makes you cry
It's painful, so sad, sometimes I cry
But no one really cares..
to ask why, why, why
Well I cry because my heart is torn
I find it hard to carry on
And if I had an ear to confide in
I would cry amongst my treasured friends
A-but who do you know that stops that long
to help another carry on
Ah the world moves fast
and it would rather pass you on by
than to stop and see what makes you cry
It's painful, so sad, sometimes I cry
And no one really cares..
to ask why, why, why

I came here in this world
not knowing that I would soon be torn
Im unwanted and unwell and oh, only if someone could tell
But nobody can tell nor would they care
so here I am, sitting here playing with my hair
I use to look into the mirror and see a pretty face as a reflection,
though now I see a girl with tears running down her face, a face that
has a look of great depression, she is sad and unkown
she just sits there all on her own she wishs she where dead
but others wish her pain and blood insted
and she treated herself ,she most deffinatly
dosn't regrete granting her wish of death...

Theres a little depressed girl
and upside down is her intire world
She wishes she was dead, but she in hell insted
all they say is that her life is in vain, but all she can say
is "is it my fault when YOU caused me this pain?"
They look at her and wisper
they look at her and stare
no on is there for her, and nobody cares
Shes depressed and is always taking in a lie
and after they lie to her and she gets heart broken
she just sets in the dark corner and crys
She once loved a boy who shatterd her heart
she only wishes that she could of seen that comming from the start
Shes siting in the corner and crys in vain she only dreams
of joyful gains,She also wishes that she could be free,
The sad part is...
That little girl is me...

Okay okay Just one more and its a song. Okay? Okay.

Straylight Run "Existentialism On Prom Night"

when the sun came up
we were sleeping in
sunk inside our blankets
sprawled across the bed
and we were dreaming

there are moments when i know it
and the world revolves around us
and we're keeping it
keeping it all going
this delicate balance
vulnerable
all knowing

Chorus

(sing like you think no one's listening)
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would kill for this

(sing like you think no one's listening)
you would kill for this
just a little bit
just a little bit
you would....

sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything
we're glad for what we've got
done with what we've lost
our whole lives laid out right in front of us

Chorus

sing me something soft
sad and delicate
or loud and out of key
sing me anything

If you think thats too much too read. Oh well Read it anyways. Haha Laterz.

Friday, September 23, 2005

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 23:08:04 GMT

The Cure "Friday, Im In Love"

I don't care if Monday's blue
Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too
Thursday I don't care about you
it's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can fall apart
Tuesday Wednesday break my heart
Thursday doesn't even start
it's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
and Sunday always comes too late
but Friday never hesitate

I don't care if Monday's black
Tuesday Wednesday heart attack
Thursday never looking back
it's Friday I'm in love

Monday you can hold your head
Tuesday Wednesday stay in bed
Oh Thursday watch the walls instead
it's Friday I'm in love

Saturday wait
and Sunday always comes too late
but Friday never hesitate

dressed up to the eyes
it's a wonderful surprise
to see your shoes and your spirits rise
throwing out your frown
and just smiling at the sound
and as sleek as a shriek
spinning round and round
always take a big bite
it's such a gorgeous sight
to see you eat in the middle of the night
you can never get enough
enough of this stuff
it's Friday
I'm in love

Hey... it fits the day. haha. I LOVE THE CURE!!!!!! They are so awesome... Well Laterz.